panic and indifference

today is exam day.
3 hours for 3 essays in politics.
of the middle east.
everything from ayatollah to zionism.
i'll be happy when it's over.
have been trying for 2 weeks to see myself in an exam situation, just like 11 years ago, when i was last at a uni. it hasn't worked. the thought is just too surreal. so i guess i'll have to wait for the actual situation to happen.
also, what sort of an essay can you write in ONE HOUR? quality? no way. quantity? 3 pages max. it's an ill-conceived concept.
but who is asking me?
fingers crossed x